Ahhhh! I know, right??

This has been such an exciting and illuminating time for me — adapting to an insane amount of changes in my body and how I need to eat, and finding a wellspring of flexibility to give myself space and time for rest, relaxation, even the occasional nap!  (Turns out babies grow best when mama is nourished, chill, and well-rested.. who would’ve thought?!)

I’ve had to retool everything from my diet, movement and self-care, to my schedule and work, even the plan for my business. Orchestrating a launch of Greens. Grains. Gorgeous. and moving cross-country while 5 months pregnant was certainly no picnic either, but I just kept coming back to the vision I had for myself and my life, and remained grounded in the knowledge that every choice I was making was best not just for me, but for our growing little family as well.

I’ll be the first to admit the process hasn’t been easy. We tried to get pregnant for nearly two years, which was an incredibly frustrating experience, both personally and professionally.  Here I was, helping so many women to conceive in my work as a holistic health expert, and I myself was struggling.  We eat great, exercise, and take awesome care of ourselves… so what was the problem??

We couldn’t pinpoint any one major issue that was making it difficult to conceive (which made it even more frustrating).  The deeper we dug, the more little things we found that needed our attention. But even as we dealt with these minor factors, we still weren’t getting pregnant.  Something just wasn’t connecting.

My husband liked to reassure me over and over again that we’ll get pregnant the second we move to California.  That it was the stress of New York living that was getting in the way.  But I was resistant. I knew I wasn’t the best version of myself living in New York, but I spent SO much of my time counteracting all of the city’s overstimulating stressors. Could it really be that it just wasn’t enough?

Ultimately, I knew I had to practice letting go.  That my body knew best when to allow this little miracle to occur.  It was the ultimate exercise in flexibility.  Unlike every other aspect of my body and health, I couldn’t just work at this to change or fix it, I had to stop and go with the flow.  I had to trust.

This past October, I travelled to Southern California to meet my husband in Ojai for the tail end of his work conference.  We shared an amazing weekend at the Ojai Valley Inn and Spa, amid the endless rosemary and lavender bushes, and gorgeous green mountains.  Then we drove to LA and spent an overwhelmingly exciting few days in Santa Monica. As we biked down Montana Avenue, we both felt it, this was where we belonged, where our hearts were calling us.

We may have already been preggo in this photo in Ojai!

That weekend, without even trying, we made a baby.  It turns out my husband was right.  My body was waiting until we found our new home, until it knew the coast was clear, and that our path out of New York was set.  I had to trust that my body knew best, and it totally 100% did.

I’m so excited to share this experience with you here on the blog, where I’ll be outlining my favorite resources for a healthy, organic, gorgeous pregnancy over the next few months here, so if you or a friend are expecting, be sure to pass them along! I’ll also be sharing more about the lessons this experience has given way to, which will no doubt infuse my coaching with even more useful tools in self-care, stress management, body acceptance, and holistic health — regardless of whether or not you’re pregnant. So stay tuned!

Just a heads up, I’ll be taking some time off from my private practice towards the tail end of my pregnancy, and lasting throughout 2015 (maternity leave!), so if you know you want to work with me this year, Greens. Grains. Gorgeous. is the only way to do it!  Enrollment is open all this week, and we have a few spots left in the program… I would absolutely LOVE to have you join me in this transformational online experience!!